The good in Goodbye
It is for my own good. It is for my family’s good. I am trying to be good, to be better. My definition of that is different from yours. It is good for me to let you go. It is good that we can no longer be, whatever it was that …
Family
My family are the ones who spend time within these walls. The tall nervous girl, eager to please so sensitive and kind. The Man who always looks me in the eye and has walked with me through dark times and bright. These strange feline folk who have always loved unconditionally. …
Efface, to wear away
Time has a way of wearing down, erasing, almost rearranging the self into something like but unlike. It seems you start this journey to adulthood thinking so many thoughts of who you will be, how you will be and when. Then life happens and those dreams, many of them are …
Dauntless
Em and I had a reading day not too long ago. We both hung out in our PJs and read Divergent. She with a paperback, me with my kindle. Her reading is way more sustained since she got glasses so we literally spent all day reading and talking about what …
Visible Soul of our house
I’m very tired, these last few days because of some significant changes I’m making in my life. My C, probably forever and always will be cats. Cats were my friends when I had none. Cats were my parents when my parents were not around. When I couldn’t live for me …
No one saves us but ourselves
No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path. I  think that was the Buddha. To me it means We have to make the choices, we have to make the decisions on what we fix about our lives and when. I don’t want to change what …
Between Grief and High Delight
The answer is obvious and the question not fully known. The path is clear and trapped with brambles. The cup filled with comfort and regret. It seems like one decision after another keeps having to be made. And by that I mean by me. Me, making decisions. I’ve learned …
Tempered
The thing is that there’s always an underlying tension. You’re only ever one wrong word away from it all going wrong. You can never relax. If you don’t give  the due respect or adoration, or if you disagree , or whatever tiny trigger sets  them off, then you get at …
Sweet Bartleby
Sweet Bartleby, a photo by jyllianm on Flickr. My ever present boyo. He follows me upstairs, he’s there when I’m sick. He comforts me and is my Siamese shadow. For a siamese guy he doesn’t talk much and he’s very different from the Siamese I’ve had before…but then all cats …
It’s a box with a cat in it
It’s a box with a cat in it, a photo by jyllianm on Flickr. They are like cat traps you know? If you needed to trap a cat, put a box down, you don’t even need food. I think paper attracts them faster.
My Second Job
A while back I decided to learn html. A long while ago. I’ve built my websites myself for years until one day I paid a friend to do so because, well, because it was a good thing to do. And I’ve traded building my site for  things as well, because …
O, wind, if winter comes, can spring be far behind? ~Percy Bysshe Shelley
It has been a long winter.  A very long winter. There have been actual feet of snow. There have been too many inches of ice. Many missed days of school and work.  I think it is 11 or 12 now.  What you see in these pictures isn’t actually snow, it’s …
A woman? Is that meant to insult me?
Oh I’ve been stewing on this for awhile.  I’m sick of being underestimated because I’m nice. Or because I’m quiet. Because I surely am the former but not so much the latter. Well If you know me. If you don’t or if Iâ€m in a situation I’m not fully …
Time for Bed
J with his cat Zak. Em leaning on him. This picture says a lot somehow about our family. I don’t know what exactly but I love everything going on here. Her pretty face and big eyes, elegant fingers on her Dad’s back. J with his companion of 14 years. Zak …
Haircut
So I’ve been trying to grow my hair out for over a year now. From very short. It has taken quite a lot longer than it did previously, but I think that has to do with my stylist not just letting my hair get really big (because hoo boy do …
Em speaks with Haru
Em speaks with Haru, a photo by jyllianm on Flickr. In our family, all the cats talk. Of course they meow, mip, meeyup and purr (or chuff) but they also speak human. Yes they do. They always have. Even if it sounds like their voices (and they are all distinct) …
Haru sleeps
Haru sleeps, a photo by jyllianm on Flickr. Oh I’m trying this photo a day thing and I’m being moderately successful. You will see many pictures of cats and probably more food than I’ve ever photographed because 1) I am not a photographer, I just like taking pictures 2) Our …
Little words
Em’s phrases: Derp Hee in your sauce Cheese Bus Flails away into the sun You can’t fight the Homestuck (shudder) Do you Ship that? OTP!!! She’s starting to get a bit embarrassed about pictures now. My kind, smart, gorgeous girl.Â