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April 14, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Once each day

Once each day

Oh that’s an easy one… When I pick up Em from school. I love to see her smile as she walks out the door. I like to see the sweet loping walk she has, all arms and legs and hair in her face. It’s like the sun comes out from behind clouds when she appears […]

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April 13, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Seal up your lips and give no words but mum.

Seal up your lips and give no words but mum.

Well that’s kind of an ironic topic for me. I’ve been keeping a journal online since the 90s. Not all of it is still up, and some is locked behind passwords . I was a confessional poet when I was a poet and I’m more than a bit of a confessional blogger. I do try […]

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April 12, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Barely boiling water

Barely boiling water

April Moon, Day 10 Ah the kitchen, center of the home, place of sustenance and creativity. It wasn’t always that way. My Dad liked to cook I think. My mother hated it. I didn’t know how. When I moved out I could barely boil water. Several lovely men taught me how to do a few […]

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April 11, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Short Sharp Shock

Short Sharp Shock

April Moon Day 9 Well that’s interesting. I was diagnosed with PTSD in the 90s. When I don’t have more than normal stress I can manage pretty well. Phones ringing can still make me jump. I’m not good with sudden sharp noises but when things are good my heart doesn’t continue to pound for an […]

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April 10, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

cats, cups, shoes

cats, cups, shoes

April Moon, Day 8 cats…But I swear to god I’m not a cat hoarder! I was trying to find a good flickr embed plugin, but haven’t yet….so here are those cats! I also like funny coffee mugs. Geeky and with cats! And commemorative glassware! Surprised? And shoes.  Boots and converse especially. ok and lipgloss. Too […]

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April 9, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Once more with feeling

Once more with feeling

April Moon Day 7 I’m working my way out from under a serious load–of a reoccurrence of the PTSD…or (and I hate this word) a triggering of it..or however you put that. Many months of painting and improving and packing and slowly taking our leave. 2 years of estrangements. Some lost friendships( and some gained). […]

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April 8, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

It’s not the thunder, it’s the wind

It’s not the thunder, it’s the wind

April Moon Day 6 One thing I won’t miss about Arkansas are the storms. I remember when we used to have rain, now it seems all we have are deluges. Thunder makes me jump, but strangely,although I run around the house unplugging all our computers (or ask J to do it if I’m out) I […]

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April 7, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Music heard so deeply that it is not heard at all

Music heard so deeply that it is not heard at all

April Moon Day 5 You are the Music, while the music lasts. My favorite Eliot quote. It is now the subtitle of my blog, but it used to be the title. I changed it because I felt myself growing older and stepping away from the dance floor.  The name of my blog comes from a […]

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April 6, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Relax, go to it

Relax, go to it

(April Moon 15, day 4)Right now as the house is on the market…nope not now. Last month as we pushed through the major painting, fixing and re-arranging to list the house–nope not then. The previous several months as I packed and cleaned and re-arranged–not really. The last 10 months as I held down a full […]

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April 5, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

The Bean

The Bean

(April Moon 15, day 3)I’ve done a number of things in my life–built networks from the ground up, written a book of (bad) poetry (only published in zines), built websites from vague words and three pictures into powerhouses of attraction. I’ve written a thesis on the application of the semiotics of torture to the life […]

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April 4, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

A decade wiser

A decade wiser

(April Moon 15, day 2) Well then… this is interesting. 10 years ago we were preparing to move to Fayetteville. There have been some days I  have thought that this was a mistake. Friends warned me I would be returning to the source of unhappiness for validation. And yes, that did happen.  Seeing the people that […]

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April 3, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

The end of the chapter but not the book

The end of the chapter but not the book

(April Moon 15, day 1)This is a particularly difficult time for me/for our family  right now. We have been packing and fixing and painting to move from our house of nearly 10 years. There are some personal things as well I’m just not fully able to talk about yet. This is the chapter ending. This […]

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February 24, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /  

No Dissension Allowed

No Dissension Allowed

When did we stop being able to disagree about things, ideas, beliefs and start being offended, angry, diminishing ? When did the way *I* see things become the only right way? Is this a tendency the internet made much much worse or something new? I guess people of a certain age or mindset have always […]

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February 9, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /  

One foot

One foot

One thing this big move is teaching me…You have to do what is in front on you, the next thing. Some situations are so large that worrying actually makes no sense. Of course I’m concerned how Em will weather the move. Of course I’m concerned about will we find a good place to live with […]

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February 1, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Protected: The Beginning of the End

Protected: The Beginning of the End

There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

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December 24, 2014   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Home is where your family is

Home is where your family is

Project Reverb Prompt: Home: Tell us about what home meant to you this year. Are you a homebody? Did you do a renovation? Move? Redecorate? We have taken down many of our paintings, our sculptures. Much of the personality in our home is being removed day by day. We are painting and cleaning and working […]

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December 23, 2014   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Never means 2 weeks

Never means 2 weeks

Project Reverb prompt: “What did you think you’d NEVER do. But you did this year. Why? What changed your mind?” Someone told me a long time ago that never means two weeks. So I try not to say never.  I do see some things have ended but I haven’t said that I’ll never be back in […]

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December 22, 2014   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Thank you, no

Thank you, no

Project Reverb Prompt: Thank You Note: Write a thank-you note to someone who broke your heart, or made your life harder than it needed to be. Bonus points for sharing it here. Wow..every fiber of my being says No to this. A big fat no way.

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