Hell is other people and Hope is the thing with feathers

hellisemptyThings are getting better, truly they are.

As Winston Churchill said: “If you are going through Hell, keep going.”

I did and and do. And will. Some things are better.  The change was necessary. This new change is necessary too.

I would just like to stop being angry. I would like to forgive the people who let me down, who wanted too much .

At some point I’d like to put the entire last year behind me. To not have to go every place with my finger on a panic button app or walk places while talking on the phone because I am too scared to be caught alone if that person is around.  At some point I’d like to forgive the people who expect but don’t give support.

I’m working toward a way of looking at these things differently, understanding them and letting them go. Progress will be made. I hope.

I hope.

4 Comments

  1. went thru your other posts and enjoyed the frankness – this one is deeper, fiercer.
    i get it about others expecting and not giving, for sure. we all have our own personal hell to get through – don’t give up! glad i stopped by =)

    i would definitely be erudite too!

  2. Hi Jyllian!

    We’ve made it all the way to H and I am just now *finally* making my way over to your A to Z blog posts. Sorry it has taken me so long. I’ll be sure to stop by more now, though.

    I’m not sure what you went through last year, except for what I gleaned from your FB posts. I’m sorry it was so rough and that it is haunting you!

    Perhaps you can find some solace in writing? That always helps me. Such a safe place to rant and rave.

    ~Tui Snider~
    @TuiSnider on Twitter
    My blog: Tui Snider’s Offbeat & Overlooked Travel
    I am also part of the #StoryDam team, a friendly writing community!

    • Jyllian M Jyllian M

      it was a pretty horrible year for sure. It seems like a time these last few years when everything is topsy turvy. I’m hoping to find some calmer seas this year, trying to get my demons out this way. I’m glad you mentioned it. I’m really enjoying your book (I read a bit at a time) and we are thinking of searching out some of your places when next we visit.

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