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March 3, 2017   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Stop, Time

Stop, Time

There is a time in every parent’s life, when you can’t fix much  of anything anymore for your offspring. Not because they are difficult, or angry or even annoying. Only because it is time for them to do the fixing themselves. Couldn’t walk into a new school for her on the first day,  thousands of […]

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February 26, 2017   /   by Jyllian M   /   , , , ,

Another last minute

Another last minute

“There is always time for another last minute” ― Terry Pratchett, Hogfather It wasn’t the best news, but we aren’t giving up. And it never gets easier. Mr. Teatime was named for a character in the Pratchett book Hogfather. Mr. Teatime, when he was a kitten was a tiny little weirdo. All guard hairs and […]

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February 25, 2017   /   by Jyllian M   /   , , ,

Just write

Just write

I know the way to be a writer is to write. I’ve told that to students. I used to write every day. Somewhere along the line, survival took over. I was working full time and going to school full time. I lived in a tiny apartment in a kinda bad neighborhood in San Francisco with […]

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February 20, 2017   /   by Jyllian M   /   , , , ,

BLESTe BE Ye MAN Yt SPARES THES STONES

BLESTe BE Ye MAN Yt SPARES THES STONES

I love graveyards. Cemeteries. Boneyards. Cities of the Dead. They are quiet. There is a story for every stone or monument. You can visit for a conversation or just to be. I don’t think I want my body to be buried–though that has always interested me. If I could have, I would have been a […]

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February 18, 2017   /   by Jyllian M   /   , , , , ,

Not this or that, somewhere in between

Not this or that, somewhere in between

Every time I think I’m going to give up with this long long long standing blog, I come back. This is a long one, hold on. Will it click this time, again? I don’t know. The last year and a half has been, well, large.  Purging a lot. A LOT. Packing up 10 years, moving […]

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December 29, 2016   /   by Jyllian M   /   , , , ,

Words Like Daggers

Words Like Daggers

For the first time in a long time, I had to delete a comment from one of my online spaces. I thought about it and wondered if I was being ‘too sensitive.’ * Is being too sensitive an actual thing? Or is this just yet another dismissive characterization for the times people don’t wish do […]

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December 21, 2016   /   by Jyllian M   /   , ,

So the Darkness Shall Be the Light

So the Darkness Shall Be the Light

The Winter Solstice is one of my most thoughtful times. I suppose because I spent so much time with darkness. That sounds terribly dramatic–and it was until I found a way to live with it.

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December 3, 2016   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Stay Strange

Stay Strange

Strange and frothy

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December 2, 2016   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Wagons, Ho? I Don’t Know

Wagons, Ho? I Don’t Know

We were there and now we are here so we don’t know.

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December 1, 2016   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Intentionally Silent, Intentionally Rowdy.

Intentionally Silent, Intentionally Rowdy.

Paint paint fix fix, sell the house, buy the house, move across the country, nervous breakdown.

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October 28, 2016   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Warming, as if in Spring

Warming, as if in Spring

Madness need not be all breakdown. It may also be break-through. It is potential liberation and renewal as well as enslavement and existential death.
~R. D. Laing

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December 13, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

I am not a person who wears brown

I am not a person who wears brown

I know what all the silverware means,
but I spill on those tablecloths.

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December 11, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Reload

Reload

But I just can’t stop thinking about how there is an element of fear in public places that I didn’t have before.

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December 10, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /  

Your mother wears combat boots

Your mother wears combat boots

Reverb Day 10 What radical act of love or non-conformity did you embrace this year?  How did performing this alchemy affect your ancestors and what is the gold waiting to be shared with future relations? I don’t really have much of an answer for this. I can think that perhaps this year I became more […]

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December 9, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

A wild yet subtle concoction

A wild yet subtle concoction

Reverb 15 Day 9 what if you had to give someone a recipe for how to make a YOU?   1 Abounding love for a certain Bean 5 cups cats A library Loyalty Compassion A mother lion’s strength A survivor’s sorrow and joy A snow globe holding my childhood Love A dash of magic a soupçon […]

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December 8, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Prepared for Serendipity

Prepared for Serendipity

Reverb Day 8: Alchemy and Serendipity The answer for serendipity is easy. It happened a little more than a year ago, but it has made my life immeasurably better–finding a good friend again. Another friend happened to post an instagram pic of getting her hair done and who was doing her hair but one of […]

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December 7, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Sentence first- verdict afterwards

Sentence first- verdict afterwards

Reverb Day 7 I am in such a holding pattern, I don’t know what I am the verdict of. Still here. Still trying to move forward but not lose touch with with the love, hearings and endings I’ve found from moving back home. It is a good place in many ways and I’ve crossed over […]

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December 6, 2015   /   by Jyllian M   /   ,

Unweaving

Unweaving

Reverb Day 6 Looking at the thoughts and patterns that may be holding you back from living the life you want, trace back through the generations of your family and see if your beliefs originated generations ago. In 2016, how can you bring healing to these patterns of thought that are holding you back? There […]

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